Uggh. Life is so frickin’ weird. And my parents want me to come home. In two weeks. They say it’s too expensive and it’s not fair to them to not help out with college. Yeah, I got a huge scholarship, but there’s still a lot left. But seriously, is the money I spend now really much in comparison to the money they have to shell out for college? Which, BTW, I will be helping with. I really don’t care how hard it is to work and study at the same time. And the thing is, this college doesn’t let you live anywhere but the dorm or at home for the first two years. I was just gonna get an apartment and claim residency at my house, but they said no, they won’t lie to the school. But that’s bullshit – they’ve lied to the school before. I really don’t care if they see this. I am so sick of being guilt-tripped. Do they really think that they’re making me want to come back? Because I swear, I will not stay at that house any more than I have to. I’ll study at the school, I’ll sleep at my friend’s house, I’ll be gone whenever I can. Every time I talk to them they bug me about something else. Sometimes it’s old stuff, sometimes it’s something new. And if they kick me out for doing all that stuff, so be it. I’ll figure it out. I really don’t care. For goodness sakes, LET GO. I’m old enough to handle myself. I’M FUCKING SICK OF THIS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! My home doesn’t even feel like it’s in _______ anymore. Not that it’s here with my brother, either. (No offense, Sean) I have no idea where it is – maybe I don’t even have one. Maybe I never will. I really don’t care. But I need to move. Not move as in change residences (although I kind of need to do that too) but move as in get my butt moving and… uggh. I can’t even describe it. I’m sure my dad is so disappointed. I still don’t know what I want to do. Where I come from that’s forbidden. I hate this though. I’m a big girl. I swear, I want to just leave the country sometimes. Just go to a different country for a while. I don’t think I’ll be able to stay in one place for more than a month. Everything’s pressing down all at once and I’m feeling claustrophobic.