I was up so late last night. Around 4:15 AM, I realized that birds were chirping. I peeked out through the blinds, and yep, the sky was getting light. I love having an East window. I think I went to sleep about 15 minutes later. I’d had so much caffeine earlier, and then I talked to Sean for nearly three hours. I always wanted a big brother when I was younger. I thought about having an older sister, but decided it would be too much trouble, and besides, I was a tomboy. (Still kind of am.) What use would I have for an older sister? I may have also been biased by the fact that I knew that I had an older brother out there somewhere. I’m glad I finally found him. I’ve been planning to do that since I was little. I told my mom when I was maybe seven or eight that I was going to see him some day. Of course, at that point, I figured he was going to be the one who sort of popped into our lives, not the other way around. I don’t remember exactly how old I was when I decided I would have to find him, but I know that once I did, there was nothing that could change my mind. My mom said that he had his own life and didn’t need us messing it up. She honestly believed that. I wasn’t sure if I’d mess it up, but fortunately I was selfish enough not to care.
I’m listening to the techno trance music that Kevin gave me. Goodness knows why it’s making me a little sad. Maybe because I’ll miss him. Crap, I really better not think about missing ANYBODY right now, much less my best friend. I’ll see him a couple of times. And summer’s not forever.
But it’s long enough to have some fun, and boy do I intend to. 😀